I went skiing to Mountain Creek in NJ during the snow storm. LOL. It was pretty decent, and they had plenty of trails and a decent amount of snow on top of the ice. Granted the ice was really annoying, but it was fun nonetheless.
The event was organized by the Union Squares House church (to some other christians, this is what you’d call small group fellowship). The trip was Richard’s but just got bigger and bigger as more and more people wanted to go.
The trip was pretty good up until the snow storm hit and it really started to come down. While skiing you literally couldn’t see 10 feet in front of you!
Also near the end, this snowboarder clocked me at high speed twice within 60 seconds apart. I pulled my right quad as my leg twisted in a direction that it wasn’t meant to go. I got up, saying, “WTF is your @#($* problem?!” The guy gives me one look look and takes off. Damn punks… LOL
Anyways, we left at 4 since the snow was coming down harder and driving would be dangerous. It took us only an hour and a half to get there, but nearly 2.5 hours to get back near NY. Our car decided to get some nice Korean food at Fort Lee. From Left to Right, Top to bottom: Melanie, Me, Helen, and Pat
My hair looks nuts since I was wearing a bandana the entire day. LOL
Later that night I got a call from Uma, who says, “We gotta discuss your dating habits…” Essentially, she basically was reaming me up the wall for the first time saying that I’m simply too nice when I meet people and just give too much of myself in general. Unless they really know who I am prior, most people wouldn’t understand. On top of that, becuase in general I’m just nice to everyone, there’s really no distinction between good friends and a significant other. (Well actually there is the emotional level, as well as the whole exclusivity level, but I guess she’s referring to more visible issues)
So what am I to do? Well, it means that I need to be more of an asshole… Ever notice how asshole guys get treated like gods when they do the slighest bit of thing considerate for once? Essentially if you’re nice all the time, it makes it 10X harder to top yourself for those special occassions. Basically, if you’re eating steak everyday, it takes a filet mingion to feel special, and at that sometimes even filet mingion gets boring…
Now I’m not saying I’m gonna turn into a jerk… I’m not about to return to the arrogant conceited asshole I was in 98 and 99… It’s just that Uma makes a valid point that I really need to tone down being nice and sweet to everyone all the time. Plus I should be less giving of myself and hold back things about myself… Ugh, I hate the dating scene - its the ultimate test of game theory.
Anyhow, this is probably not gonna be an overnight thing anyways… Every time I work on fixing a character flaw of mine it usually takes at least a few months. That’s ok with me anyhow, I’m single, focused on work, financing for a new car, preparing for the GMAT and MBA admissions, as well as pushing for a promo soon. I need to focus on myself for a change and be selfish for once.
One thing is true (at least from the people that I encounter), however, only older women appreciate a guy that’s genuine, sweet and nice. Maybe that explains why I get along with older women so well in general. Most females my age are just looking for that good looking guy who’d be a wild hookup. Just look at what goes on during Thursday Happy Hours! That’s why I don’t go looking for numbers when I go, if I meet someone as an aquaintence that I only see at the parties, its all good. If we have the chance to meet outside of the party scene or get introduced by someone I trust (George for example), then I’ll let my iron walls down. If this offends any readers out there… GOOD! Prove me wrong.
Also it’s my personal policy to not even consider anyone from work or church. PERIOD. It’s just bad policy, in that if anything by chance goes wrong, it’s your entire reputation on the line. Time to find a new job or a new church. It only takes one bad thing to completely ruin a good thing. You see how bad the collateral damage can be? If any of you out there are even considering doing either one, you better be damn serious about dating this person, maybe even to the point of marriage. Either that, or she better be THAT special to you to risk it all. Simply put, these are not the places to go about casual dating. You better be in the mindset to settle down…
People say I act a lot older than I really am. What doesn’t help is that I have this baby face that makes me look 12, but once I start talking, people know they’re not dealing with a typical guy in his early 20’s. Even Richard was suprised to hear that I was 22 (23 in March), since just the things I talk about are non-typical of people my age. I’ve been hearing this all throughout college, and the best quote was from Violetta, and investment banker at Merrill: “Eddie is the only 30 year old that is 20 years old that I know…” That pretty sums it up. Granted I had to sacrifice much to gain all the experience that I have, and build the equity that I have. Do I regret it? In some sense yes, in that I sometimes feel robbed of the party times of college. But then again, these “party times” do nothing to further your personal development. So in that sense I don’t feel that bad… But honestly, I do feel that my chronological age is the biggest hinderance of me maximizing my capacity. If I were 5 years older, people would take me more seriously, and I wouldn’t have to constantly prove that I can do the same things (or exceed) a guy 15 years older than me can do. It’s one of the reasons why I don’t let anyone at work know my age, but let them know of my experiences in life. Judgement comes on a different level. Once that respect has been established, my real age won’t make a friggin difference…
Anyhow, I’m ranted enough now… I’m off to Excel to work on how to finance my new car.
Feeling: a bit pissed and in pain (from that jerkoff snowboarder)
Wanting: to disappear for a bit
Needing: something to distract me
To do: clean my apt, laundry, call a few friends