Yeah I know this is the first update in over 2 months. So sue me. Things have been quite rough for me in the last 2 months. Basically lets break them down into categories: Job, Mom’s Cancer, MBA Applications, GMAT study, Clean My Apt, spending time with Caroline. Well as some of you may know, I ended my 2nd rotation at Johnson & Johnson and started my 3rd one, at J&J’s elite techie group, the Advanced Technologies Research department. Essentially, this is where J&J does extensive research on the latest bleeding edge of cutting edge of technology to see if we can take advantage of early technologies for the company. Stuff that we test out hasn’t even hit the market, and most of the stuff I do I’m not even allowed to discuss. Alot of the work is quite stressful since I’m one of the few people in the world to attempt it, and thus if shit happens, there’s obviously no documentation nor support. It’s a very high publicity group to be in and thus deadlines are critical for us to deliver. Long hours, lots of pressure, and much frustration have added to the pile of my worries…

As for mom’s cancer, turns out her doctor was an idiot. Her tumor was 1.2 cm big, and a whole mastectomy was completely unwarranted, since a lumpectomy would’ve been just as effective. Also the American Cancer Institute says that anything over 1 cm should go through chemotherapy as a precautionary measure. He didn’t suggest it because he had bad politics with the hospital’s oncology dept. So we pulled her out and took her to someplace better: Robert Wood Johnson (yes and that’s JNJ affiliated). Granted it’s not Sloan Kettering, but its still one of the top in the east coast. The doctor told us the truth as I stated above, and my mom began chemo. She already lost her hair and is weak and was hospitalized for severe anemia where her white blood cell count dropped to 80, and her blood pressure wouldn’t register correctly because it was so low. She’s back at home now, but is still weak. Worse of all, Aetna HMO calls us saying that they refuse to pay for chemo since its an unnecessary cost. Damn fuckers. HMO’s are dirty businesses. Aetna you suck. You sux so bad that I’m switching HMO’s when J&J will allow me to, and I’ll encourage others to do so after what you dickheads did. After lobbying and bringing in doctors and such to argue with the HMO, they compromised and said that they’ll pay for the chemo Rx, but that’s it. My mom would have to administer the shots herself. Yeah ***** right! She hardly has enough energy to get out of bed you dirty HMO bitches!! All this plus chemo has made my mom totally emotional and very uneasy.

Applications for MBA schools are due mid January. Which means I gotta take the GMAT asap and do the apps. Ugh, high school all over again…

My apt. is dirty and cluttered. I cleaned 1/2 so far, but still the other 1/2 to go. Where’s the time for this?

Plus I feel bad, becuase I feel like I’m neglecting Caroline in a sense, since I’m always exhausted at the end of the day, or too tired on the weekend. My conversation ability has dropped to almost nothing since my brain tends to just shut down. I’m just glad I didn’t get cranky on her. That’s one side of me I hope she’ll never see.

Well that’s what’s going on in a nutshell. Things are busy, and I still have to do shopping… But WHEN?!!